On May 31st we found out were pregnant! On Tuesday June 14th I started spotting, I went in for blood work and had to take it really easy. I went back in on June 16th for another blood test. My levels did not double like they were supposed to but they went up so my Doctor was concerned about an Ectopic pregnancy. I went back in on June 18th for another Blood test and was told that my numbers went down significantly so I had miscarried! This miscarriage was VERY different from my one 5 years ago. We will see my OB in 2 weeks and see if we can figure out why I am miscarrying. It has been a emotional week! Brandon has been awesome at helping me to take it easy and being supportive and Loving! Easton when I cry tells me "Don't cry Mom, it be ok!"
I do know that the Lord only gives us what we can handle! I hope that this Trial will just make me stronger!
Below is a post that I wrote 5/31/2011! I did not post it since we were waiting until after June 27th to make the announcement! I did not want to delete this post because I feel it is still important to remember how I felt at the time.
A new Baby Olson coming February 2012
Yes that's right we are finally pregnant! After exactly 2 years of trying we are blessed to add a additional member to our family! On Tuesday May 31st I realized that I was 2 days late, this has happened before and I was not pregnant so I did not get to excited. Well Brandon came home from work and after having a REALLY bad day I told him it would be fun to test and see if we were pregnant because if we were then that would change his mood and if not then we were used to that so it would not make the day any worse. He reluctantly agreed due to the past 23 months always being a disappointment. Well the test came out Positive! I was screaming with excitment and we were both crying and poor Easton was just looking at us with a scared face not at all sure what was going on! We asked him if he wants to have a baby brother and sister and he said "yup a sister" We headed right out to look for a tshirt for Easton that says "Big Brother" Well I have of course seen a ton of them the past few months but now that we actually need one we can not find one. Well after each store Easton would say "don't want to got home, want to buy a baby" So stinking funny yet cute! Every day he still tells us "Easton want a baby?"
Well we decided not tell anyone until after our first appointment with the OBGYN June 27th. I miscarried back in 2006 and it was SO hard to have to tell everyone that we were no longer pregnant. We also think that I miscarried about 2 months ago so we want to be on the cautious side of things right now. Trust me this is the HARDEST thing to keep in, especially after trying for 2 years! I am just taking it easy at least until my appointment, I want to do anything to help prevent a miscarriage!
4 comments:
oh Jess, I am so sorry. I know how badly you want this. Praying for you. call me if you need anything. so so sorry...
Jessica~ My heart just broke for you! I do agree with you that the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle, but it doesn't make it any easier :( I understand what you are going through!! Feel free to call can cry any time! I love you!
Jessica Honey I am so sorry, I know how excited you were...Keep your chin up girl and call me if you need to talk, maybe the Lord needs you to focus your attention elsewhere right now and he will Bless you even larger in the soon future. Don't give up hope. I love you and will be keeping you in my prayers.
Jessica I'm so sorry! I totally know how you feel! I too miscarried back in January of 2010 and it was so hard. Your miscarriage experience sounds almost exactly like mine! Including all the blood tests and everything! I know that it's something you can't help and that you want another baby so badly! Just remember that the Lord knows your heart and he knows what your are going through. I will keep you in my prayers and hopefully it will happen for you soon! Love ya! You can call me anytime to talk. Talk to you soon I hope:)
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